Sunday, October 23, 2016

An evening with Wm. Paul Young ( author of The Shack)

Wally and I were fortunate enough to go to Spruce Grove to listen to and meet Wm. Paul Young ( the author of The Shack ). There were close to 30 of us adults here and several children. We started off with an amazing potluck supper.

We then got to enjoy the music of Alana Levandoski. I had never heard of her but I ended up buying both of her CDs. I very rarely listen to music anymore. I’ve just been so discouraged by it. I enjoy Alana’s music. It is totally different than what I have listened to in the past, but it calms me. I need that.

Wally and I were one of the first ones there so I was able to talk to Paul. He was exactly as I imagined him to be; He was kind and very humble. He was easy to converse with and I was hardly even stuttering so...that’s a good thing. I find it hard to talk with people I just meet but he made me feel calm. I am drawn to people like that. Those are the kinds of people I need around me most.

I won’t get into the meat of what he talked about right now, but I do want to share something that I found very cool. I loved how he answered questions. He didn’t “directly“ answer the question but he used stories and examples to get the asker to look at it from a different perspective. I have learned through counseling (not directly) that it was good for me to come to the answers to my questions myself. When I would ask Iran a question he didn’t usually answer it, but showed me through stories and examples that maybe am seeing things through the wrong perspective...not necessarily through the truth ( though it may be the truth as I know it). As it would always end up, I was asking the wrong question and I came to that realization through this process. It makes you search yourself and listen to Holy Spirit for the answer. These are the only two men I have ever seen do this. It’s so awesome!

Another thing, on the way home Wally and I talked a bit about Paul’s book, The Shack, and about what he shared about it. Wally said he didn’t have the issues with it that Paul said most people did (the way he portrayed God). I didn’t either. I read the book as a story and I enjoyed it very much but then I made the mistake of telling others, esp my evangelical Christian friends. They told me how bad it was and how heretic this book was ( most of them hadn't even read it). Because I was a follower (and esp when it came to religion) I went with it and believed it. I never read it again (until recently) and never talked about it. I regret that. I’m not going to get into the details about what Paul shared about that because frankly, I’m not interested in explaining and defending what I believe. And for the record, much of what Paul shared was very encouraging to Wally and I. It confirmed that the path we are on is the right one.

This is just a little taster. I’ll decide later in the week if I will share more!!! Blessings my Friends!!

I love you!

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Something Happens: Part 1

Here I am doing something I never thought I would do again.  Write and blog.  We will see where it all takes me but while I have the words, the gumption, and something to say...Let's do this thing.  Thank you Lord!

This is a little series I am writing about MOI!  Some details won't be shared at this time but maybe just maybe, a peak into my mind will help someone out just a little bit if not just show you that you aren't alone.  The series is called Something Happens and I will post little installments once or twice a week ( providing I have it ready ).  Enjoy.  ( and enjoy the fun little picture of me and my family taken Christmas 2015 ). 

 Something Happens ( Part 1 ).   

I hit rock bottom a few years ago.  It was during that time I gave up all my hopes and dreams for the future.  I tried to live my life daily (which I had to).  When life is so hard sometimes you don’t have a choice but to deal with it moment by moment.  Weirdly enough, that is how we are supposed to live all the time and now I am starting to learn that in a positive way.  What got me through those years of lost dreams and unbelief was counseling and unlearning what I thought was the truth and starting to learn what I am realizing is the truth.  Unfortunately, I’m a slow learner so I imagine this will be a slow and sometimes painful process my whole life BUT knowing it is truth and knowing the TRUTH will set me free makes me carry on and want to learn more.   

Friday, May 29, 2015

Celebrate Recovery

Long time, no post. :)  Did you miss me?  

I have been doing the Celebrate Recovery program on my own since January.  I know there are benefits of doing it with a group but at this time, on my own is best for several reasons.  Anyway, I am almost done the first workbook.  I'm on Principle 3 that reads:  We consciously choose to commit all our lives and will to Christ's care and control.  We make the decision to TURN every aspect of our lives and will over to our Higher Power, Jesus Christ.  In order to turn our lives over to Christ's care and control, we need to take ACTION.  

So basically I work through the highlighted words ( each letter stands for a word or phrase along with a Bible verse.  It's really a great set up to do on your own if you are like me and feel that need.  Then what I do is write a short ( or long ) blurb in my journal about what I learned that day and whatever else I need to get off my chest.  It's been working good for me. 

I say all this to share with you what I ended today's blurb with.  As a perfectionist in certain areas, I tend to quit if I can't do it perfect according to my standard which is pretty high and my profound thought for the day is:

Maybe I need to quit, quit trying.  :)

Have a GREAT weekend friends and God's Blessings Abounding!!

Friday, April 10, 2015

You Are Good Enough

 I sent out an email this week and this morning it started bothering me.  It was a short email.  What bothered me most about it is the question I asked at the end of the email: “Is that good enough?”  When I think of that comment and I think of some of the things I learned though counseling and one of my biggest issues is the way I see myself.  I see myself as not important and my opinions not important either.  This is a very unhealthy way to live and it is something I am in recovery from, but aside from that, it has never bothered me about something I had said until today.   I shared my plan that I had already decided on.  That should be good enough.  It is good enough.  My plan didn’t stray far from the issue and it isn’t even a big deal, but the fact that it bothered me that I said it, is a huge deal to me.  It shows me that I am recognizing more and more that I need to be better to me.  It also shows me that perhaps I’m more in tune to the Holy Spirit pointing these out to me, than I have been in the past. It shows me that God is,  by far, not through with me.  

I will take this moment as a victory and Praise God for Him and thank Him for this amazing moment.  He is indeed GOOD!  

I hope that if you are reading this that you will know that YOU are good enough too.  Don't second guess yourself and who you are and what you say.  YOU are worth it and YOU rock!


Friday, January 30, 2015

Lesson Learned

In two separate conversations in the last 24 hours I have said to two different people, " I'm glad I didn't give up."  Both of these situations are close to my heart and one of them is pretty much my whole life and I chose to persevere through the pain.  Simply, God gave me NO way out but He stayed with me through the suffering.  I can't say it's all good now, but I can say, TODAY is good and I'm so glad I didn't give up!  I am learning to live one day at a time and be thankful for what I have today.  The past is painful and the future is is what I have and it's good.

Thank you GOD for never leaving my side, for being my strength and thank you that you have never changed and that you will continue to be by my side.  ♥♥♥♥♥

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Finish What You Start: A Mentality or the Truth Part 1

It just dawned on me this morning that there is so many things I don’t start, or do because I don’t think I will be successful at it and finish it , or that I will be good at it.  It comes to mind things like, “clear your plate, “finish your food,” etc.  I think that is where it all begins…as children.  I’m not saying it’s wrong or right or otherwise.  I did that with my own kids. It only makes sense to begin what you started and to finish it properly?  I see the parallel in this very clearly.

I remember last year, Danny had entered in something and he didn’t want to continue to do.  He was genuinely worried and he fretted over it.  I believed he should finish it because he had started it and isn’t that teaching our kids about being grown ups is all about?  Isn’t that teaching them responsibility? I asked for counsel on this and was told for the first time in my life by someone, when I explained the situation and why I believe he needed to finish, that “I would tend to go the other way.”  WHAT?  That is like going against the grain to society and all the teachings out there in books, mom groups and never mind that, church groups.  After a few weeks of thinking about it and praying about it, I did end up allowing him to quit and it was the best decision I ever made.  I’m not saying that this is always the way to go.  I think every situation is different.   

We need to look outside what we have been taught by humans and rather look inside ourselves and seek the guidance of the Holy Spirit and look into what we are being taught from the Bible to do ( yes, that means read your Bible.  It always come down to that anyway ☺  ).   It’s also helpful to have good and wise counsel and for me, having counsel of someone who “goes against the grain “so to speak, has been beneficial.  I have this way about me that things have to go a certain way because they are supposed to.  That is the RULE!  Well, life hasn’t been working for me like that for a very long time ( well, maybe not ever ). So maybe it’s time to change.

Like the questions goes, 

 part 2 coming soon